Petty high school shit. Yet I'm not in high school.....

I had some words written to me today. These words, which I did not take kindly to, got my brain in action. These words, which included such choice phrases as;

"What gives you the right to have such a superior attitude to everyone else"

"You walk around like everyone aspires to be you or something" and

"My god you are ignorant!! I'm having a go at you cause your a rude arrogant bastard."

I do have a superior attitude, but that is part of who I am. Its not like its a newly developed thing, when the original friendship was developed it was there. I have been called many names, which I can just brush off, that doesn't bother me. The thing that drives me to becoming a massive cunt to people is being judged for what I do. It happened the other day with my best friend, who (in jest) said, and I am paraphrasing here "Yeah, like the way you have to sell your shit a lot cause you get into drug debts." That didn't fuck me off, but it hurt more than I could explain.

The person who started this argument, whom I also care for deeply, judged me for my apparent lack of direction and my shitty job (fast food). I know I can do better than this, but I am quite comfortable in my mediocrity. But I guess now that's not true, as if a comment about it has hurt me even a little, I may be more insecure about it than I care to admit to myself.

"The only thing I hate more than myself is everyone else" A wise Doctor said that once, and I have never agreed with a statement more. I am getting my license soon, early next year I am planning an aimless pilgrimage. All I need is 2 close friends and a fuck-load of dangerous and experimental psychoactive chemicals and ill be set.

See you on the road fuckbags.